Self-Care

Dedicate/Day 13. Space.

On the Mat: 21 minutes.

Observations: This was my favorite thus far! I rocked it. I did awesome and Whoa I have amazing leg strength. No qualms saying it👍. Was it a challenge? Yes. But, I awesomely did it! ⭐️ Gold Star to me. 

Insights: Space. Adriene was gracious with the insight. We must create space for new possibilities and this practice is expanding me to do just that. I honestly am shocked I’ve made this far. But, I’m here in this SPACE of discovery and new possibility. I’m open to the SPACE it is creating by doing and where it leads me. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Prep and Making SPACE for the next two days of challenges. Focusing not on my current limitations, but how I’m investing in this journey. See you tomorrow. 

Tomorrow: Day 14. Grace.

Love, C.

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Dedicate/Day 12. Curate.

On the Mat: 20 minutes.

Observations: Yesterday I was exhausted and with my work schedule I didn’t show up, but today I did. The flexiablity did also, I could actually touch the ground. Yes, the end move was awkward and my body wasn’t ready. Maybe someday, in the meantime it’s I did what felt good:) 

Insights: Big One! We are the curators of our own lives. It’s our deal and knowone else’s:)

And our Mind sometimes want to quit before our bodies do. Good Good Stuff. Completely Aligning with another project I’m doing right now which I will eventually share with you guys:) 

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But, I’ll Take Today: I reenergized and ready to work on space tonight after a Topo Chico:)   

Tonight: Day 13. Space.

Love, C.

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Dedicate/Day 11. Courage.

On the Mat: 23 minutes and Yoga for Beginners (YWA) 41 minutes. 

Observations: Balance came and went😂. It’s interesting how one side of the body can be more flexible than the other. Yeah, today their was a posture I didn’t even attempt😜 and totally cool with that. 

Insights: Courage to show up when all over IG I saw this crazy posture everyone was doing and it was way intimidating and I was thinking what the hell did I get myself into🤪 But, this is a big reminder this is my story and I’m not here to show off, but show up. And I love how Adriene encourages that humble heart too. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Another add-on Beginners Practice with Adriene  HERE. Will be doing this another time this week for sure. Now off to work.

Tomorrow: Day 12. Curate.

Love, C.

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:)

Dedicate/Day 10. Expand.

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On the Mat: 25 minutes. + yoga for complete Beginners by Adriene 20 Minutes. 

Observations:  Yea! 10 days on the Mat. I wish I could say something profound happened. Heck that’s what’s profound😜 10 days in the book. Yes, I’m still learning. Yes, I’m still awkward, but also I have moments of grace. I’m loving the calm that’s inhabiting my body and spilling out unto my everyday as well. Today’s practice was all about expanding. I pushed my breath in and out. It felt so lovely. And I found my balance expanding again as with my flexibility. 

Insights: Expand and Oooh Its my One Little Word for the Year too and I was waiting for that word to find me this year and while I was meditating before beginning today’s practice. I thought of how I can expand in my life. Expand beyond old beliefs. Expand beyond expectations and even possibilities. Definitely a word I can grow with in 2019:) and I’m sure this yoga journey can help with that. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: I also decided to dig a little deeper into the basics of yoga and added this 20 minute Yoga for Complete Beginners from Adriene today and plan this week doing few other Beginner Foundation ones this week with the 30 Day Journey. I will post them here as well. It really helped to fine tune my postures and understand deeper the poses. 

Tomorrow: Day 11. Courage.

Ten Day Reflect:  When I started this yoga journey I had no expectations and still actually don’t. I began with a might as well and I’m gonna continue with it:) It’s working thus far more than I ever imagined.  Other Side Effects: Better Sleep. Improved mood and patience with myself and others. More Energy and I glide like a gazelle😜 

Love, C.

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Dedicate/Day 9. Divine.

On the Mat: 25 minutes.

Observations: Downward Dog is in the books now. No Modification necessary any longer. Woo hoo. Still awkward in between poses, the flow is coming easier and I’m finding my length returning. Now for balance😜. But, I’ll Take the progress today😊. 

Insights: Breathing in the beauty of  soulful center and the yesterday recurring theme showing up today of honesty. Honesty of learning something new and being open to how awesome it is! Can’t wait to share tomorrow what this journey has meant thus far. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Work and happiness in 9 days on the Mat! 

Tomorrow: Day 10. Expand.

Love, C.

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Dedicate/Day 8. Meditate.

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On the Mat: 28 minutes.

Observations: Day 8 was indeed cozy. Perfect quiet movements in between the fire of the last days. A reminder to be in each day and honest. Honest that I am not as Flexiable nor as graceful as Adriene. Maybe it will come or maybe it never will, but I won’t abandon the try. 

Insights: Slow the eff down. These last 11 days of the new year have actually been amazingly productive and also insightful. But, sometimes when things are going this great. I get greedy with momentum and push for more. Today in this Meditation practice I caught myself to Slow Down again and remember I decided to Rest Easy in making Good:) Do the little things that amount to big stuff in the long run and be present in the in-between like today’s Cozy:) Tomorrow will show up quick enough. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Laundry again:) and Taco’s🌮 tonight. Loving these three days off a week! 

Tomorrow: Day 9. Divine.

Love, C.

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:)

Dedicate/Day 7 Surya.

On the Mat: 17 minutes.

Observations: After Yesterday’s Core this was a breeze:) ok not completely easy. Still modifying on many parts, but showing up for many of the poses in full. All good:) And I think I might need some yoga pants😜

Insights: my intention today finding my strength in the moment and celebrating it whatever level it is:) Needing this practice right now like the Sunshine outside today. And writing about this morning and then showing up to the Mat to realize Surya means Sun. Love those soulful nudges:) 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Showing up and enjoying the the love of self-care. 

Tomorrow: Day 8. Meditate.

Love, C.

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Dedicate/Day 6. Core.

On the Mat: 29 minutes.

Observations: Let me be Honest. I’m trying to find what Feels Good and yesterday after choosing a dear friends call over my morning practice and then planning on coming home at 9pm to do Candle Lit Core:) The reality became... I was tired and just wanted a glass of wine with some little evening Hulu. But, Core happened this morning and that’s ok. This Journey is My Journey and I’m calling the shots:) And I showed up rested and ready. 

So, glad I did! Holy Buckets! That was Throw up working the core city and I’m not kidding. 

Insights: My core is important and I need to do actually do a daily practice of it. Maybe begin with five minutes a day. It does serve me so well and it also is where I carry a lot of my physical baggage (weight). I need to make friends with it and not hold so much shame and insecurity there. Love it and Let it go:) 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Catching up with Friends, Laundry and finding Joy hibernating in the warmth of my little studio. 

Tonight: Day 7. Surya.

Love, C. 

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:)

Dedicate/Day 5. Flow.

On the Mat: 29 minutes.

Observations: Tonight was hard. The hardest yet and I have a feeling it ain’t gonna get easier. But, I’m still gonna show up. The flow and movements are becoming familiar which feels good. Yes, I was tired tonight and prefer on a work day doing this practice in the morning instead. I did do a downward dog fully tonight without modification:) that alone was worth it.  

Insights: I’m where I need to be right now and yoga is definitely a gift with bringing daily calm and chill which I experienced today with in a difficult interaction. 👍

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But, I’ll Take Today: Good sleep tonight. 

Tomorrow: Day 6. Core.

Love, C. 

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Dedicate/Day 4. Feel.

On the Mat: 22 minutes.

Observations: OK I did Feel tonight (which will be last night when you read this). My muscles shaked and shaked. But, it was worth it. I felt like I wanted to see what a evening yoga would feel like and it was awesome. My strength is there and it feels so natural. I’m kind falling in love with this 30 day or 29😜 Journey. 

Insights: I loved how Adriene explained how this practice at home has so many fruits and permissions to just be with ourselves on this journey. And my heart also has a special connection to her practice more so when she mentioned imagining being on the Hill at Barton Springs in her town of Austin, TX. Which holds 2 years of my own life and still so much of my own heart in the people, places and things still there. So, tonight in honor of showing up to the Mat again. A Topo Chico with a Twist of Lime is in order with a big gulp of gratitude:) 

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But, I’ll Take Today: slowing down. Being present in my daily routine of work and doing my yoga practice tonight. 

Tomorrow: Day 5. Flow. 

Love, C. 

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:)

Dedicate/Day 3. Observe.

On the Mat: 35 minutes. 

Observations: Yesterday, Muscles I had forgotten had a good ache and I stood a little straighter too again. I slept like a baby last night as well:)  Today was finding my strength coming back and even a little grace in the movements Truly also getting to observe myself in every little action. Still modifying movements, but allowing myself to think about the possibility of trying tomorrow one full position. Pretty cool:) 

Insights: Magic happens in the In-Between. Love being reminded of that today and that Laughter is lovely. Adriene has such charming soul. 

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But, I’ll Take Today: Day off. Had big plans to do do do. But, I think I’m just gonna Rest Easy with a new book and watch the new Tidying Up series with Marie Kondo on NetFlix😊 

Tomorrow: Day 4. Feel.

Love, C. 

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:)

Buttered to the Edge.

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My Momma always taught me to Butter my Toast to the Edge and since her passing strangely it’s become a little mantra for my life. Attempting to take the basic joys and building a well-fed life off it. 

I’m not talking about eating the whole loaf in the pantry and slathering a stick of butter on one golden toasted slice. But, savoring every Edge just the way I like it. And making no apologies.

Butter is good and toast is fabulous.    Remembering Life is too short to deny ourselves the authentic everyday goodness over a imitation of ideal expectations. Just like I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter. It might look like it or the taste maybe resembles it.  But, ain’t Butter and You might as well go for the Real Thing rather than the imposter. 

Last year was a butter bust for me in that Department. I had a lot of ideas of where I needed and wanted to be. And so many Can’ts (won’ts) So, far in these 6 days of 2019. I have been being, doing and bucking the unrealistic expectations. It tastes good to say the least. Yes, their is some salty moments, but I’m resting Easy in them too. Doing me each day a little bit more. 

Writing daily on the Blog. Showing up for Dedicate- 30 day Yoga Journey via Yoga with Adriene. Taking the Day with Little actions that hopefully will turn into Big Picture Progress. Letting Go of People, Ideas and Things that aren’t serving me in the moment. And showing myself Kindness again. 

And thanks for coming along with me.  

Love, C.  

Dedicate/Day 0. Orientation.

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Hi I’m Cynthia or Cindy if you’ve known me for along time. I’m a curious soul and like trying new things. So, I’ve decided to go on this 30 day Yoga Journey with many other cool souls out there:) And being a storyteller, I’m gonna try to tell the story as well as I can. Keeping it simple.

Here goes:

On the Mat: 0 Minutes.  [Time spent on the Yoga Mat during this 30 day Journey and of course I’m giving myself more or less time permission] 

Observations: Orientation. No Yoga. Pep Talk. So, Glad I came across this opportunity to remember how to show up for myself again. Adriene seems so kind and it’s awesome that she is doing this for Free. And I love that she’s based out of my Beloved ATX. [Observations each day will be a mini version  to my daily practices of Flow Pages- uncensored whatever comes to mind.]

Insights: I’m just gonna show up. No giant expectations. Just Resting Easy in my 2019 intentions of sinking into Who I Am and not trying to chase ideals that don’t serve me.  [Insights are my little a-ha moments or tiny epiphanies/sparks that show up to remind me of the bigger picture] 

Calendar. A  free download  from Dedicate. I’ve decided to post it each day and cross off my progress with  A Design Kit . 

Calendar. A free download from Dedicate. I’ve decided to post it each day and cross off my progress with A Design Kit

But, I’ll Take Today: Get my Mat out. And discover my Why’s- Find my strength again. Take Deep Breaths and learn something new.  [Todays little actions and acceptance of Now.]

Tomorrow: Day 1. Discern.  [Whats up for the next day] 

I hope this break down helps and you might choose to come along with me. 

Love, C.  

PS It’s not too late for you to Join myself and many others on Dedicate-A 30 Day Yoga Journey. HERE  It least check it out:) 

Better Than Before.

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I am Better than Before. Definitely not Perfect. But, yep Better than Before. Here is a little update where I am at on the Healthy train, certain actions I beginning to take and goals for the next three months. 

Pump on Girl. 

So, the other day on my commute to work, I listened to a Podcast that made my heart pump with Gratitude.  Oprah's SuperSoul Conversation with Geneen Roth- Conscious Eating. They hit on so many inspiring topics. But, One Statement Oprah made, "Pump on Girl" resonated with me on a level I had been looking for. She spoke about how our Hearts Serve us throughout our lives and make it possible to be HERE. I know this to be true, literally:) Since the Nine Months after having my Open-Heart Surgery (to replace my Mitral Valve from a childhood bout with rheumatic fever, if you didn't know:). Now with my Heart working so beautifully, I am gifted with a healthy life I had thought was not possible.  

I can physically do the things, I used to love so much again. Like going for walks and busting up hills with ease or Climbing up stairs like I own those bitches:) Even Running to not miss the bus. All because I can breathe! It's amazing thing, I cherish every moment. And I hope by reading this you do too:) 

Spring Forward Action. 

Barre 3. In the past week I started back up with Barre 3 Online. Exercise Motivation, even with my past heart issues was not a problem for me except in the last few years. I was limited on what I Could do. Now, I can plank without reserve:) When I was in recovery mode last summer. I had to limit certain movements with my open-heart incision. Now that it’s beyond healed, if you are wondering... the only time it still might be uncomfortable. Is if I cough, sneeze or if I am too cold. But, now I am back to fully enjoying Barre 3. It’s a great bonus to my daily walks.

Overall,  the Barre3 online program is so wonderfully designed and works magically during the winter months. I am already seeing results with my stamina and mood. I Look forward to the other benefits:) 

Well-Balanced Baby. No Whole30 or Keto for me. I am sticking to what works. Balance, Average Portions and Limiting my Carb-Sugar intake. I have spent too many years on those crazy fad diets. Before you jump on me with Stats and Articles. I know what I am doing:) I might even go back to this program. It really works (I lost 100 pounds working this program), while teaching you how to eat for Life not for a Diet. 

Nice Little Goals. Recently Listening to this Podcast, I was reminded of the power of little Goals and Keeping it Quarterly. So, for the next 3 months I am working on the above and Making my Bed daily too:) So, Far so good:) on all fronts. 

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Thank you for stopping by my little corner of the Internet and reading my health updates and goals:) Keep me posted if you have any:) Love you Guys. 

Love, C. 

The Lonely Heart Club.

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A year ago I would've cringed at the thought of writing this post on loneliness… But,  my own current Lonely hearts club isn’t a sad solo meeting in a church basement or a drunk sing-along A La  Bridget Jones Diary anymore.  Here I want to share about how I turned believing loneliness was a curse into a big old gratitude fest of celebrating my own company.

This topic in the past was something I looked at as taboo and shameful. Thinking something was inherently wrong with me for being alone and comparing my single status to others that are not, “Wow if they can find somebody, Why Oh Why can’t I?” or judging other single folks. As you can see over the years I have done a lot of self negative talk on being by myself and it has seemed to spill over into many other aspects of my life. But, always back to ‘What the heck is wrong with me’ ?  Now I realize there is absolutely nothing wrong with me, maybe there are things I need to change, but not for the sole reason of finding a mate. Clearly, on a daily basis flawed humans date, marry and even procreate:)

So, what changed?

Staring Loneliness Head On. When I learned that I needed Heart Surgery and was scared sh*tless of doing this alone or worse dying alone.  Yes, I had some remarkable individuals step-up to the plate and I will be forever grateful to know I actually wasn’t as alone as I thought. But, not having my Father, Mother, Step-Father or my Ex-husband there was excruciatingly hard. Looking back in some ways for most of the pre-surgery journey. I spent a lot of time doing the All or Nothing attitude. I wanted my Mommy and that unconditional love by my side or nothing at all. But, even though I did the ‘feel sorry for myself loneliness dance’, something happened… I wasn’t really alone. The Hospital Staff, amazing Chaplain and a Priest were there for me. My friends and family pushed through my loneliness to be there. I realized that my ideas of what I didn’t have was fulfilled in so many other amazing ways. Reminding me that loneliness is a choice we make sometimes out of fear and facing it truly takes it’s power away.

A Book.  Last Fall, I listened to a Podcast interview via The Lively Show on the topic of Consciously Completing a Relationship with Author Katherine Woodward Thomas. Currently then and now I am Single, so the topic wasn’t too useful, but I was curious and so glad I listened because I heard Katherine's own story of her own challenges of being single and a previous book she had written called Calling in “The One”-7 Weeks to Attract the Love of Your Life. I was fascinated to know how at my own age she finally found the One and to read the insights she had collected.

When the Book arrived at my local Barnes and Noble,  I slithered shamefully in and picked it up. Once home I worked that book like Therapy Appointments for weeks. But, instead of finding the ‘One’. I began to truly allow myself for the first time EVER to be OK with my Solo status. Katherine really brought home that you must ‘Start creating your best life to bring in your perfect partner’. So, the advice that so many of us singles hate to hear is actually TRUE. Work on yourself and the lover will arrive;) Wink. Wink. Or in my case now you celebrate solo in the meantime.

Some Movies. While laid up after my Heart Surgery this summer, one of my dear friends from work brought over a extra Laptop and DVD’s for me to watch. Included in her selections was the 2003 Romantic Comedy, Under the Tuscan Sun starring Diane Lane. I had surprisingly never seen it or as I would like to believe… maybe it wasn’t the right timing until then:) But, whoa each time I watched the story about divorced, American writer Frances Mayes embarking on her ‘I am sick of being afraid’  adventure about fixing up a ramshackle villa in Tuscany, meeting unique characters and taking a chance on herself.  It felt like big embrace of  ‘It’s cool to be alone right now’ and even more rad to accept it.

And there is another movie favorite that recently reminded me that I was on the right path of embracing time by myself and that Harrison Ford is still hot:)  Sabrina, the 1995 version with Julia Ormond and Greg Kinnear. Do you remember the scene when Sabrina is in Paris and walking with her French Mentor? And she says to Sabrina, “You seem embarrassed by your Loneliness. Don’t be. It is only a place to start …”

A Slap in a face reminder that We shouldn’t be embarrassed of our Loneliness ever. I have firmly come to believe now and know it is where some the greatest adventures of our lives do start.

Other Cool Lonely People. Another big thing I have learned recently is not shy away from other lonely people for fear of misery likes company mentality. After all, not all Lonely people are miserable:) Get to know their stories, let them know your story and do things together.  Embrace the chance to make new friends. I know that idea can be a frightening one as adult, so many of us stick with old friends just out of comfort and honestly that can even make you more lonely.  Getting outside of our comfort zones might be scary at first, but who knows a new friend might introduce us to our next relationship:)  Even if not, it is still worth cultivating new pals.

Gratitude. I know I have been talking a lot about Gratitude lately. But, it is a discipline that really works in the loneliness department as well. Being Grateful for the time alone to focus on the things we love and self-care. And I am not just talking about running a bath or going for a walk. Those things definitely matter and bathing is always a good idea;) But, Gratitude for self-care when related to how we treat ourselves mindfully. The things we say to ourselves.  If we are talking trash about ourselves, loneliness will be a prison of sorts. But, if we change that trash talk into gratitude talk, loneliness becomes a possible place of happy:) In my daily Morning Gratitude Practice, I try to say kind things about my current relationship status and even find myself saying, “I am Grateful for loneliness and all the lessons I am learning.”

I know many of you might think, I have falling off the Lonely Ladder:) But, Seriously it is pretty amazing to feel so at peace with this Single Moment in my life. Yes, of course I would love to find someone and I will. I never have had a problem with it in the past.  But, I don’t want it be about desperation and embarrassment. I have learned from that kind of  Loneliness, when we panic we attract like minded relationships or allow people into our lives that we normally wouldn’t. Just for the sake of not being alone.

So, I really hope all this Lonely Hearts Club talk might of helped you as well and if you have any other ideas of enjoying loneliness let me know. I would love to hear from you. Because I am Lonely and All;) wink. wink.

Love, C.