Mexican Martini.

Since my Tequila tolerance is at all-time low before a visit to ATX. I decided it was time time to take matters into my own hands and do a little solo daytime drinking. Hey no flipping shame in that:) and also sharing my favorite drink of choice.

 The Mexican Martini. It’s Austin original and if you ask for it anymore where else... most folks have no idea what your talking about. I know I have stumped all Minneapolis Bartenders with it:) But, it’s pretty simple and here is the recipe I have been graced with via my Dear friend Tari another ATX original. 

Abundantly Serves 1.

3 ounces of Tequila. (I prefer gold)  

1 1/2 ounces of Cointreau or Triple Sec

1 1/2 ounces of fresh lime Juice.  

1/2 ounces of green-olive brine from the jar.  

A big splash of orange juice.  

Olives 2-3 or 5 if you are me.  

Shake it all up in a  iced filled shaker and the  strain into a traditional Martini glass rimmed with Salt. Then garnish with a repurposed cool cocktail  stick of olives from a local bar. I used one from @psychosuzis and make sure your off of work😂 Enjoy!

Love, C. 

Big Magic.

It’s what wakes me up in the morning. A surge of creative energy that beckons me to my writing table. Sometimes it’s stolen moments when I should be getting ready for work, but on my mornings like these when I am off. The pen to paper is my work. A Exhilarating passionate kind of work that more resembles a hot and bothered tryst with creativity;) Love, Love, Love it even if my writing is less than perfect. Which it usually is:) But, while recently re-devouring the unique yet very bold book by @elizabeth_gilbert_writer on Creativity. I am reminded that this is my life thing. Ever since I could write and received my first diary. And now many moons later I still do it with that same wonderment and magic. Yes, creative fear still creeps in (thanks Miss Freeberg, my 5th grade teacher for that). But, I still write. And This little, big book made it easier. It’s just that flipping good ~ The kind of good that makes you say “fear let’s be friends so I can tell you to simmer down so I can create without you nagging me all the time.” It’s so worth a read yourself. I am just blown away at Liz’s graciousness to share the wonders, joys and shit sandwiches of everyday creativity. #shereads #shetellsstories #storyboardc

She has Curves.

It’s ok to have curves. It’s ok to be thin as well. There is room for us all in this big beautiful world. Today at work I learned this while helping this lovely lady with her darling 5 year old daughter. In times like this I think of my own Mother and ourown times shopping. It was a sweet reminder of her. As I was applying makeup to her Momma. The little girl exclaimed, “You are so pretty but Fat.” It caught me off guard, breaking my heart a little.” The look on her mother’s face was horror and after she quickly said her Brother had been calling her fat lately. She’s five and not fat! “ I soon explained to her that pretty comes in all shapes and sizes. There was no apologies, but her Momma looked at me with amazement that I could conjure up that response while putting on my best face until I could be done with the consultation. 

Thankfully my co-workers stepped up to the plate as I shared my hurt and comforted me during my mini meltdown. And Reminding me Recently of another friend of mine at work who had shared his own insecurities. His very different then mine. But, a reminder we all have them. Mine is my weight. A lifelong self-esteem curse and blessing as well

The curse of always being the fat girl, but you could be so pretty social mentality. Creating a bubble of insecurity around me despite actually being very confident 95% of the time. Often going from feeling invisible  to not good enough. Especially when it comes to relationships. I often say when someone’s interested me, “oh he’s too cute for me.” I know bullshit. But, I do feel that way. 

The blessing though I have found is compassion and looking beyond flaws or even perfections with others. Seeing them for there true heart appearance.

I am not sharing this story for sympathy or compliments. But, to be heard. A little girl unintentionally hurt me today. Opened up my insecurities like package you want to hide forever. I cried, went home early because of it. I Couldn’t contain the sadness I hide so often. Yes, I could lose weight and have. But, that fat little girl inside of me will never go away. But, tonight instead of hating her. I loved her for once. So, maybe it was all worth it.

Love, C. 

Hope.

Brother David Steindl-Rast

I collect quotes like books, scribble them down in random notebooks and even have a pinterest board dedicated to them. So, Millennial I know, even though I'm Gen X. But, despite the "I could give two shits about age related labels", I love quotes and they love finding me. Especially the perplexing ones surrounding Hope.

Hope for me for many years has been a pretty fickle friend. You can't help loving the concept of it... like Having Hope when everything is going wrong or even when things are going blissfully right. Using Hope via our imaginations to create that perfect brand of Hopefulness for a new job, a love interest or even in our most desperate of times. Where Hope seems to be the only thing navigating us down those crap streams of uncertainty.

But, this is where hope gets really frustrating often misleading. Our Ideas/Imagination of hope take over and Leaves real Hope in the corner waiting for us to show back up. After the job turns out to be much more challenging then you ever imagined. The Love interest turns into a real douche or you end up really falling in love despite all the things you never hoped for... Once we come back to real hope and really listen to what it's offering us.

Something really beautifully weird Happens: Surprise. And this is why I LOVE this quote by Brother David Steindl-Rast above. This 92-year old Benedictine Monk (Below I will have links to his Ted Talk and Super Soul Sunday conversation with Oprah), who defies age with his amazing spiritual Grateful wisdom. Finally opening my own eyes to a whole new approach to Hope. It's not fickle anymore nor misleading. It's now heart blowing. Where my imagination takes no more hopeful interpretations of something I actually can not create or control. My only obligation is to sit back and see what hope does. Yes, I still imagine scenarios of things I desire wholeheartedly in my life and take mindful steps towards them. But, I don't take them that seriously. I just open my heart to the opportunity and let the Surprise story unfold. It actually takes a lot of pressure of me to know I can only do so much and God's plan will always override mine for better or learning in the end. 

I really hope this all makes a little sense to you:) if not listen to Brother David for yourself. It has been such a blessing to me and I HOPE it is for you as well. *Pun totally intended. 

Love, C. 

Yes, Dad I wear Color.

Enjoying my coffee this morning while doing my Morning pages and I thought of something my Dad said to me the other night while on the phone. "Why do You never wear color anymore? You did more when you had lost weight? Actually it pissed me off a little bit. Not because he said it, but it's true.

So, in the last year after gaining these last 20 extra pounds back after my surgery. The black comes out more. It's safe and easy. Yes, all my clothes still fit. But, they're snug. It bothers the shit out of me actually. I don't like the feeling of invisibility that creeps back with the weight either. I miss feeling good and actually I don't right now sometimes. And it breaks my heart a bit. 

So, Today I said fuck it and wore my favorite shirt around the house and plan on wearing my jeans tomorrow. They fit fine just tried them on. And big ol' reminder that our minds can be our worst friends sometimes. 

Love, C. 

Week in the Life-Sunday.

My Mother’s Teenage Album. 1964-1967. 

Sunday I took only two pictures. And I went back to color. Whoa did I miss it. 

Yes, I drank my coffee. Took my shower and ate some food. But, the Story of Sunday was much bigger than that. 

It was about Mother's Day and also all about digesting all the photos I took, the words I wrote and even the moment's I chose Not to document throughout this Week in the Life project.

Then I sat down and wrote this Letter to the Week.  

Dear Week of May 7th-13th of 2018, 

First I gotta say is Thank you. I have been wanting to do this project for many years, but always settled into Observation mode. Enjoying the fruits of everyone's documenting labors especially WITL's founder Ali Edwards finished project. But, this Week I did it. Throwing my fears of being boring and mundane out the window. Actually after each day... I experienced the opposite. I was interesting even if it was just to myself:)

I then challenged myself on a whim to document the days in Black and White only. And whoa that was a lens opener for me. Seeing my daily story in a whole new way. Working with texture and light instead of color. I found myself really loving photography again. That alone makes this week worth it. 

Then it also brought me to such a humbling detailed view on who I am NOW. The challenges I have overcome. The Changes I have made and the ones I still need too. Also the deep Joy I find in the connections around me and relearning to practice my creativity daily again. 

The most surprising take a way from this week. Is Not telling certain stories. I loved holding them in between the words I wrote and the pictures I took. Tucking them in the folds of my heart and head to savor and enjoy myself. 

Now today this adventure ends on Mothers Day. Always a bittersweet time for me. In honor of her memory and I took out her own photo albums. And looked at them with a whole new perspective. Remembering how she taught me the joy of telling stories and collecting memories. Even if it's just for our eyes. Those albums today hold so much more than photos and words.

A life Well-Lived. So, excited to continue that Legacy myself. 

Love, C. 

Week in the Life/Saturday.

Hi and Cheers to Saturday. 

Cheers to the Sun rising with a sense of urgency this morning and waking me up way before I was ready. But, I guess it wanted me to show up early today.  

Cheers that Maybe, I need to accept that my morning table isn’t as organized as I have thought all along. Laptop open, Last nights water glasses and my Grocery store flowers days beyond expiration. 

Cheers to AM Coffee, Writing, Showering and heading out the door for work.

Cheers to feeling so much better this morning. Just in time to enjoy my morning walk to the bus stop. 

Cheers to The first photo I took this week that I would rather have seen in color. Everything is blooming big time.

Cheers to how Spring never ceases to amaze me each year and how the fresh air freely works in my lungs.  

Cheers to the sidewalk sights I see everyday and still find lovely. 

Cheers to living in Downtown Minneapolis.

Cheers to Saturday Transit. And today's detour through the heart of the city. It was awesome to see the Giant Farmers Market in full swing and now it's a must do on my summer bucket list. 

Cheers to the guy in front of me wearing the 70's pleather jacket enjoying his tunes and the blonde girl in the messy bun in front of us using her essential oils on the bus while also still looking cool with a big coffee stain on her white jeans. 

Cheers to Love always winning. 

Cheers to your Favorite Freelance Make-up Artist Friend being at work today. Beautiful, Kind Soul with the best hair ever! 

Cheers to making it nearly 5 hours in my new shoes.

Cheers to accepting my curves and imperfections. 

Cheers to the Secret stories I didn't tell today. Some things you just want to enjoy and ponder in your head. 

Cheers to ending the night with Crap cute beer.

Cheers to being really awkwardly bold today:)

Cheers to a Phone date with my Daddy and then my Best Friend Kristen in Georgia.

Cheers to staying up way too late reminiscing and finishing off a six pack:)

Love, C. 

Week in the Life/Friday.

Today was the best day yet. So, much connections. And appreciation for the current story of my life. It all began with wind rattling my blinds and finding no coffee creamer. I threw on my writing sweater and headed to the corner store.

The weather outside was more like a brilliant fall day instead of early Spring. I also left my camera in a rush to find the store 'Be Back in 5 sign' up. But, within a few moments Robert pounced to the door. He has a walk like a the former dancer he is. And after a few moments Charles came in and Robert let me use his phone camera capture him. 

Charles is charm and joy at it's finest. 71 years young, he has lived in our neighborhood for 46 years. Charles who originally is from Indiana transplanted here in 1970's. We always talk about History and If you need to know something, he knows it with a spark of storytelling like no other. He also gives the best compliments, like what he said to me today, "your 29 and looking fine" always with his trademark wink and high five. A true reminder that our stories are far richer with the individuals that cross our daily paths.  

Back in my apartment with my coffee creamer in hand. I noticed a little history of my own in the corner. A Old Photograph from my Grandparents collection that I have inherited of a family friend who was a colonel in Gettysburg. And a chair that came all the way from Germany when my Great-Great Grandparents landed at Ellis Island in NYC. Our stories hold so much history and I love these daily reminders.

Then Writing over coffee about how important our connections with others truly color our lives even when you are documenting in black and white;)

Getting ready for work and giggling at my growing shoe collection and being reminded of how I make living in a small urban space work well with this beauty cart to pull up to my tiny pink bathroom. And yes I use those giant scissors for perpetual bang trims.

Serious tight lining action shot;)

Waiting for my Lyft ride to work (still feeling a little under the weather for the bus ride) while sometimes pretending I live in NYC or Paris with that cool metal awning outside my old apartment building. 

My Lfyt driver Muhammad was awesome. We talked about how living in Downtown Minneapolis is the best and how we wouldn't want to be anywhere else. yes for sure. 

Back at work. Break time after everyone loved that I was wearing heels instead of my usual checkered vans. My coffee is always made with love.

Wanting Someday to have my kitchen resemble my works coffee Ebar. These lights rock. 

Enjoying my signature Cynthia warm weather (even though it was brisk out) drink outside. Iced Americano with one pump of caramel and a heaping dose of creamer for good measure. 

Back at work it was busy and joyful. I also got news of a Vintage Volvo for sale. This is my car of choice for the last 16 years of my life. Keep your fingers crossed that it will be mine. I miss the open road so much. 

Supper was the best clam chowder and good conversation. It was so yum that I forgot to take a photo:) After supper called my Daddy and found out he was in the hospital and didn't tell me. He is OK. But, I reminded him that he is all I have and he needs to take of himself. He is my heart.

Loving working in such a pretty place and this chair is my all-time fave.

And 'sneaking' out with co-worker to find some new fancy shoes:) They will debut tomorrow.

Closing time. I love these people. 

And now Home. Blissfully tired and will sleep very well with the gratitude for the people, places and things that created my little story today.

And I have a feeling tomorrow will even be better. Night. Night. 

Love, C. 

Week in the Life/Thursday.

7:34 am. Woke up anxious today. I have so much to do and planned to do on my day off. But, this cold is really getting the best of me. Yet the sunlight is beautiful this morning and the perfect spring chill is in the air. I decided to slip on my writing sweater and head into the kitchen. 

Saw the aftermath of yesterday’s laundry fiasco. I was so tired last night that I just left the laundry bags strewn on the floor. 

Last night’s dishes in the drying rack still. They’ll probably stay there all day. 

Brewed my coffee and ready for some morning pages and checking emails, Facebook and Instagram. BTW thank you for all the kind words about this Week in the Life. It has been so much fun, but yet challenging. Trying to not get focused too much on the things I need to change.  

My kitchen table view. Thinking of my Mother so much lately. Especially with Mothers Day approaching. It’s always a bittersweet time not having her around. This little brass picture frame was from my childhood bedroom desk  now has a place again. To remind me of the gratitude for moments and people in my life that are no longer with me. And why documenting matters. 

Finishing up yesterday’s week in the life post and doing some extra proof reading. I type so fast sometimes that grammar takes a back seat:) also loving the sound of the fan, the birds chirping and fully bloomed trees. Spring is truly here in Minneapolis. 

12 Noon. Laying in bed. My cold is finally letting up a bit. Enjoying a little MarieTV videos. She is worth a check out if you have never heard of her.  

And playing around also around with A Color Story-Photo Editing App. This is what I exclusively use now for all my photos. One stop shop for filters and adjusting. 

What’s your favorite photo editing apps and online inspiration? 

Afternoon. You guys I really had no energy to do anything and actually felt frustrated that this would be today's story. I had such high hopes to tell a better one. The reason being in the past year for the first time in many years illness has finally taken a back seat. I wanted to celebrate all the things I can do now with ease that I had struggled with before my heart was fixed. 

But, Right Now had other plans. And I finally decided to go with it today. Feel the Feels and find the gratitude. It's only a cold. Not like last year this time sitting in bed recovering from open heart surgery. Yes, anytime I feel under the weather now it causes anxiety. Rightfully so... just a huge heaping dose reminder of self-care and the need to slow down. 

So, I gave myself permission to stay in Bed. Taking turns between napping and finishing up my homework for A Beautiful Mess's on-line course, Up your Instagram Game. 

Creativity and on-line learning is something that has carried over with me from my Modern Memory Keeping days. And doing this Week In The Life is so reminding of how much I enjoyed this hobby. Now Dreaming and scheming for new ideas:) 

6:23 pm. Yes, a salad (spinach, tomato’s, shredded carrot, sprinkles of cheese, olives and bacon) was eaten. Hopefully it will boost my immunity somehow. 

PM. Worked on Back Taxes after my divorce. Wrote this post and being OK with not having a on day of documenting. Night. Night. See You back here for Friday. Love, C.

Week in the Life Thoughts: As Ali Edwards says about this project, "It's not a Sprint, but a Marathon. Learning to pace myself and go with the curves that everyday life brings. I'm gonna lose steam and it's OK to slow down. But, not give up if the stories are not remarkable or challenging. Remembering what another Social Media Darling Awesome with Alison says, Done is Fun and it will be. 

• Planning how I am going to tell this story in a Album. I am excited to cut, paste and write/type everything out. It's been a long time since I played with paper and printed photos out. 
• So loving the community of individuals in the closed Facebook group. Your Stories are awesome and inspiring. 
• FYI Also can't believe I haven't thrown in the towel. If your on the fence. Let's keep going:)

Week in the Life/Wednesday.

8:34 am. Sleeping in for me. Day off and still under the weather. Fighting it big-time, but also reminding myself you can't plan out everything including sickness. 

Also realized while laying in bed, its my half birthday. Does anyone else celebrate quietly this little half milestone? My Momma always did and I celebrate in honor of her:)   

So, today I am 43.5 and also don’t feel my age at all. I never imagined myself at 43. That’s for my parents and whoa it does seems wildly different from  them:)

8:52 am. I don’t waste time getting my coffee ready. And always ‘cheat the pot’ as my friend John says:) *When you pour before the coffee is finished brewing. 

Not feeling like the lady of the hour as my favorite coffee mugs says:) this Spring cold kind of sucks.  

9:02 am. Morning prayer pages begin. * 3 longhand ledger pad anything goes free for all writing exercise. It's been in my daily routine for over 20 years. Always beginning with Good Morning Jesus. A way to center myself. And yes I still drink my coffee with grinds floating in it;)  

AM spent it also catching up on all your stories for WITL. So, inspired and love what we are learning about each other.  

11:20 am. Laundry day equals messy bed. And does anyone else use a toilet paper roll for Kleenex as easy access when sick?  

12 Noon. Caught up with my old friend Christian on the phone. Love talking with him. Never dull and Making plans to hang out tonight. Though I know I should stay home and rest. 

1:34 pm. Procrastinating and Facebook was in my diversion from doing laundry. Needing something from the store. So, I Paused to take a picture of the window by my apartment door. Love the light. Radiator and these mid-century curtains.  

I really adore my corner studio apartment and the timelessness of the history of my building. Even the original 1920’s wool carpet that is lumpy to walk on. Because back in the day they used horse hair to insulate. Who knew? Gross kind of:) But, I still like it. 

The corner store. Love this place for quick things and they do such awesome job of stocking organics and Minnesota local items. It’s located in the basement of the apartment building next to me. It’s been owned by the same family since it opened and It’s one of the only ones left in downtown Minneapolis. Bygone era still kicking it.

And I love how the little chalkboard sign plays tribute to our famous local legend- Prince. The Purple Rain lyrics are perfect for this drizzly day. 

2:44 pm. Back home and enjoying Poor food choices;) But, cold pizza is yummy when your not feeling the greatest. Right?

2:58 pm. Finally getting to laundry. 

3:14 pm. And IKEA bags are where it’s at in transporting laundry;) And BTW Tide Pur detergent in Honey Lavender is the best. You don’t even need to use dryer sheets and the smell lingers for days.

Laundry fiasco. I was a little zealous with shoving too much in and with way too much soap. It was like a scene from my childhood favorite re-runs of The Brady Bunch. Soap everywhere and ridiculous drying time. Again a reminder that I need to slow down today and stop doing too much.

4pm ish. Chris texted me to cancel. I was a little relieved. I don't want to be getting others sick. 

5:16 pm. In between perpetual Laundry drying. Swung down to see Robert at the Store. He is such a fascinating character in my little life story. Love our random conversations about creativity and everything under the sun. Today's topics were me sharing this project. Photography. Morning Pages via The Artist Way. He is currently reading the book and I am so excited to know someone else doing them. He also shared his plans for his annual neighborhood Farmer's Market on Franklin/LaSalle beginning again in July. I can't wait to get Local fresh flowers and produce. 

Yes, you can get anything under the sun here. And as Robert said, "the store looks cool in Black and White." I think anything does:) 

7pm ish. The laundry is finally flipping done and my bed with freshly clean sheets is calling me big time. 

PM Spent the night making myself eat something. Breakfast bagel and guzzled water. Watched a little Netflix and worked on writing this. 

8:31 pm. 

Cheers to 43.5 with a shot of NyQuil Severe. Wednesday your done. Night. Night. 

Week in the Life Thoughts: I definitely got more in the groove today. I did forget my phone for certain things. But, I'm OK with it. I felt overall I told the stories I wanted to today. This project is so reminding of how much I miss Memory keeping. It's such a catalyst to mindfulness and being present in the moment. It also is reminding me how important our connections with others are. Even On-Line. Other Take-a-ways:

• Like our unique lives. We all tell our stories differently. 
• That my current life is far richer than I imagined. 
• It's OK to tell the boring stories.
• And things don't always go as planned. 

See you Thursday.

Love, C. 

Week in the Life/Tuesday.

7:19 am. Still feeling under the weather. And a little vulnerable. Sickness brings about so many emotions for me. Even a little cold. But, I strangely find comfort in it too. It could be like last year and by the grace of God it’s not. A new Gratitude for everyday illness.  

My daily ritual of picking out a coffee mug. Each carries a story. And also makes me realize it’s time for some new ones-new stories:)  

10 am. Setting up meds for work today. I take a lot.  One for diabetes. One for slowing my heart down to keep my sweet pig valve pumping:) One for hereditary High chloresteral. Two for mental health. Speaking of Mental Health. It’s awareness month. A reminder it’s ok to ask for help and struggle. No stigma here:) I am all about being grateful for all these pills. It helps me pursue the best version of myself.  

10:45 am.  Shower time. I love showers! It’s actually one of the most favorite times of my day. Love the ritual of it.

Putting down my little bath mat as I turn the water on. Jumping in and the quick rush of the cold water hitting me before the hot hits. Washing my face first with Kate Somerville’s Exfolikate daily cleanser that smells like pumpkin, papaya and pineapple. Then using exfolikate gentle Exfoliating treatment next.  It’s all about the glow:) Then Shampoo, Condition. Body wash and jump out. I was running late so my other routines were on over drive. 

What’s your showering routines?  

11:21 am. Heading out the door. Pausing in the stairwell of my Downtown 1920’s apartment building. Love the wear and tear of cement floor. I often think of the people that lived there and walked once the same places I did.  

11:23 am. Stopped next door at the old corner store to see if my friend Robert was working. Nope not until 12 Noon. That visit will have to wait until tomorrow.  

My City. My Life. I live in Loring Park neighborhood of Minneapolis. It’s old and charming. And a predominantly Gay neighborhood and love being a straight girl in such a rich, colorful neighborhood. Adore the sense of community and how welcoming it is. The perfect place for me right now. 

On my daily walks to the bus stop (I could do a transfer, but I adore my 15 minute jaunts)  I see so many things and this poor bike is one of them everyday. It has sat here through the seasons and today I decided I wanted to take a photo of it’s twisted tire. I also pushed through my anxiety of photo taking when others were around. Do you have that?!? It’s so odd:) Actually most people don’t care. Especially the homeless guy that was rummaging through the trash as I did.  

11:43 am. The bus came right on time today. It’s usually a few minutes late or early. I really love my commutes to the suburb. And enjoy the eclectic group of people the city offers and the bus is no different. Where every walk of life still hang out together in a world where most don’t. I truly feel everyone should take public transit once in their life. 

11:50 am. I usually listen to podcasts on my commute or read a book. But, today listening to rainy music. Peter Gabriel’s Hero. Goyte’s Hearts a mess. Amber Run’s Hide and Seek. And my favorite now, Unraveling by Violents and Monica Martin. 

Rain, Rain you can stay. It’s perfect for Spring. And especially when I bring my umbrella.  

12:21 pm. Arrived at work. Heading down the escalator to hustle to the employees entrance.  

12:23 pm. This is what greets me everyday. A reminder to leave my outside work shit at the door:) and be on:) I am a business manager for Estée Lauder. I get paid very well to make others feel better and take care of themselves. Yes, it’s much more than mascara. 

12:30 pm. Clocked in. The Store is quiet and I tell my amazing co-workers about my Week in the Life  project. One of my favorite girls (actually they all our my favorites). Angelica steps up to the plate for some portrait mode shots. 

I call her Jel Jel. We’re kindred spirits despite her being 19 and me 43. We have so much fun together. And actually our parents our the same age:) she is a old soul. Amazing girl I am blessed to have in my life:)  

1:00 pm. Self-portrait. Jel Jel took many and I decided on this one. Yes, we’re all critical. I know I can be. But, I am who I am right now. Puffy eyes and needing a dye/cut badly. But, so grateful to be here now:) 

3:46 pm. Headed home from work early. Not feeling good. 

4:o1 pm. Bus arrived. Packed to the brim with commuters. 

4:44 pm. Got off on 12th and Hennepin St. Stopped at Lund’s & Byerly’s for cold medicine, pizza (comfort food) and my breakfast bagel of choice. Reminder I need to work on my food choices. Totally have been slacking. Eating very little, but crap. 

5 pm. Walked home despite feeling cruddy. Drizzling a little. Last picture of the day. 

PM: Spent the night in bed. Talked to my Boys. My best friend Jeff. His cousin Philip. Dear John from ATX. and my Daddy in Alabama. Ate some pizza. Got a awful coughing jag and took some NyQuil and dozed off by 9:30 pm. 

Week in the Life Thoughts:  

Today I got more in the groove of Documenting. Yes, there was some miss opportunities.

• I hope I become more bolder with taking photos while others around and not caring.   
• Being ok with setting the camera down.  
• I really loved how the words came out today. Telling more of the story of my life right now.  
• Being more vulnerable.  
• I really loved telling the stories of the people that our apart of my life. Want definitely do more of that tomorrow.  
• Wondering how when I am finished how to put it all together. Any ideas.  

Love, C.  

Week in the Life/Monday.

7:18 am. Climbed out of bed with a raging sinus/headache. But, still documenting. Slipped on my flip-flops and headed to the kitchen. 

Morning Table View. Which I didn't straighten up from the night before. I'm actually pretty good (OCD) about it normally. Everyday Things I want to remember... Anatomy of a table: Left to Right. Home manicure stuff. Nail Strengthener (Butter of London), Nail Lacquer (Dior, Pandore 754) and Apricot Cuticle Oil (Essie). New iPhone 8 plus Box. Empty coffee cup from the morning before. Nearly empty cranberry juice from the night before. Grocery store flowers in their last days of pretty in My Great Grandmother Dova's Flower vase. My Beloved Olivetti underwood Studio 45 typewriter. New iPhone ear buds. Cheap, yet awesome H&M Spring Shades. My Journal that I am trying to finish out from 2014. 

Now what's on your own Morning Table?

Half-Caff. 3 scoops of each one (my current favorite coffee bean blends, Caribou's French Roast and their signature medium roast decaf. Whole bean always and I am sure my neighbors hate the sound of my grinder so early too:) 

What's your morning coffee routine?

8:06 am. Morning Pages. My Sinus Meds are kicking in a bit and Called out to work. But, still attempting my daily Morning Pages ritual though a cold wash cloth is calling out to me big time.

8:33 am. Paid Internet Bill. Exciting stuff I tell ya. 

9:44 am. Morning Hair and Don’t Care.  Teeth brushing and face washing done. Wearing my favorite t-shirt. Another reminder that I need new clothes. I love style, but I hate clothes shopping. Would much rather buy books. Now for that Cold wash Cloth. 

As cold as I can get it. And I love the stories that my 1920's sink tells in it's porcelain cracks. 

10:01 am. Wash Cloth relief. 

12:00 pm. Noon time view of Spring in full swing out my window. Yes, I need a bookshelf. 

2:30 pm. A Screenshot of The time I woke up from my 2 1/2 Hour Nap. Ridiculous. But, my head must of needed it. 

2:36 pm. Made myself eat something. The only thing sounded good was my favorite bagel from St. Paul Bagelry. No Cream Cheese, just buttered to the edge.

3:16 pm. Chatted with Tari K in ATX.  45 min. 

6:48 pm. Waking up from another nap. Enjoying the Spring evening light and the perfect temperature. Also slowly feeling my head decompress and rest. Time for more decongestant. 

7:36 pm. Supper. Cheese Burrito and apple. Watching Netflix Documentary, Bobby Kennedy for President.  Episode 1. 

9:46 pm. Back to bed. Phone charging lights out.  Reflecting on how much today I enjoyed the process of documenting through photos again. I currently focus so much on writing in this little life of mine that I forget how passionate I have been about photography. Such a cool rediscovery in the creative life that I really want to get better at again.

So, now can’t wait to see what Tuesday Week in the Life brings. See you tomorrow:) Love, C. 

Week In The Life Details:

Camera: iPhone 8 Plus. 

Black and White: I decided to challenge myself this time around with Doing all Black and White Photo's. Inspired by my childhood fascination with Old Life Magazines and the street photography of Vivian Maier. 

Editing App: A Color Story. I love their B&W Filters. So, Rich with Depth. My Favorite go-to's are Laura, Audrey and Coffee. I'm also really digging the new Texture Packet and I decided to exclusively use the Power filter for a little bit of Golden. 

Longing.

Do you ever long for a certain time in your life? Miss who you were? The hopes you had? The joy you felt?

I am having that kind of moment right now after recently finding this picture of myself at one of my most happiest of times. I just flown into Dallas to see one of my childhood Best Friends in Austin, Texas for a week. It was my first adventure in a long time and I rented a car so I could stop at Dealey Plaza to visit the Museum and site of President Kennedy's assassination. I know a weird place to be excited about going. But, being a lover of History. It was amazing to go finally be there. As sobering as it was, I really enjoyed my time there. Doing what I love best, chilling by myself and checking out the awesome Gift/book Store as well. Yep I am know I'm a total geek and love every minute of it. 

 But, this picture is more than a memory to me... A reminder of one of my most tranquil times in life.  I was feeling confident and adventuresome. I had the comfort of home and doing a job where I felt like I really was making a difference and that I mattered as well. I had the financial means to pursue my creativity. Most importantly My Faith life was so abundant.  Yes, it wasn't all perfect. I worked many hours and was still deeply grieving the recent deaths of my Mother and Step-Father. I was also challenged by being single again after my recent divorce. But, despite all those struggles God had blessed me immensely with comfort, security and joy to walk through it.  

Though this time in my life was only a couple of years ago, it seems like 20 million instead. But, I am bringing this current Longing in prayer right now to God. Because I truly believe he has placed it here NOW for a Reason. Maybe as a reminder that HIS plan is far better than mine. That He brings me to certain seasons to Grow in ways I never imagined. That those life-altering moments, like I have experienced this last year bring us to our Knees so he can transform us even further. And my Longing is the only we He can reach me to go forth and be the Person He too Longs for me to be. So, I pray...

“Jesus Help me understand this Longing in my Heart for Moments gone. It was such a beautiful time of Love, Joy and Faith. Though I Thank you even in my Longing for it NOW. But, I pray for answers to know what would you have me do with it now? What is it's purpose? 

In this past year through my surgery and recovery. You brought me so many miracles in the people, places and things that have been a part of this health journey. I am blown away by it everyday and my gratitude is immeasurable. But, also there has been pain, struggle, loneliness and heartache.  Leaving me raw and exhausted still. Whirling with Restlessness in the wondering's of it's purpose. And a major need to repay you somehow. Please allow me to rest in you and find that longing replaced with your love and guidance. Find Hope and Joy again.  In your Name I pray." 

Love, Cynthia. 

Faith/40 Days.

A Lent Reflection. 

It's a quiet morning around here. The coffee is brewed even before the sun has risen and there is a new blanket of snow on the ground outside. A reminder of the weariness of long winters and the unexpected nature of seasons. This Lenten Season has had it's snowfalls for me too. But, it was a good thing. 

Today being Holy Saturday, I thought it would be a good time to reflect after reading this, "There is a great silence on Earth today, A great silence because the King is asleep. GOD has died in the flesh and hell trembles with fear." -From an ancient homily on Holy Saturday via Bishop Barron.

So, I too sit in Silence reflecting on what this day means in the eternal story of Salvation and how this Lenten journey has transformed me. It all began with a Post and deciding after 10+ years of Blogging under my belt to change my focus. Letting my Faith be the numero uno of my On-line Presence. Initially I was full of fear that I would lose readership and feel alienated. Now I giggle at what I thought was such a Bold move, actually it was the natural thing to do and throughout Lent I kept coming across that famous St. Augustine quote, “You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you.”  I don’t think it was a chance quote happening:) God’s way of saying I gave you this creative passion and I would love for you to use it to bring others closer to me and celebrate the love I give you. Reminding me, If we aren't Honest and Authentic with the Promptings of our heart in Him. Our creativity can feel shallow and hollow. Especially when it comes to sharing our passions on Social Media. Where chasing the likes, followers and validation of others feels fruitless and desperate. Now when I put content out with God in mind. All of that falls to the wayside. Letting His will work through the creative gifts he has graciously bestowed on me. 

So, These 40 days of starting over has opened my eyes more than I ever imagined to my initial intentions of creative refocus. Reminding me that God many times answers prayers we don't even ask for or know we need. 

She Who Believed Lent Devotional/Journal. I used the Blessed Is She Digital Download throughout Lent and wrote down my Journaling on my usual Ledger Note pads. I was blown away by my daily walks with Christ and the Women of Scripture through this very special devotional. It opened my heart for a new love of the Scripture and finding my own story among these well-known and lesser known real-life Women of the Bible. My relationship with Christ has been forever changed as well. Each morning it was as if He sat beside me, helping me to understand my own times in the Desert. And how my suffering is united ultimately with his. Not for punishment, but for full dependence and love in him. Yep that $15 bucks was worth it:) and I plan next year to buy the Print Copy. In the meantime, the journaling I have done from this year will be forever treasured and I am sure to be revisiting it again and again throughout Ordinary Times. 

The Catholic Feminist. I have been listening to Podcasts for a couple of years now. Usually enjoying them on my daily transit commute to the Suburbs where I work.  But, while beginning again with a whole new Instagram Feed this lent. In those first few weeks, I came across Claire and The Catholic Feminist. And whoa I found much more than a Kick-A*% Podcast, I finally felt like I belonged for first time since I was a little girl in my Catholic Faith. Spoiler Alert, It's no secret I am not your stereotypical Catholic Women-as many of us aren't. But, we have these ideals planted in us somehow. But, as a single, divorcee (who was married to a nice Muslim Man for 6 years) and no children (yet). I have lived a lot of time away from my faith chilling in the secular world and when I did finally come back I felt many times I didn't belong. I pushed through it of course:) But, I have struggled with not fitting into the Catholic-ey Women mold. Still Challenged at times for needing to have one foot in the real world and the other in the Holy Life. Seeing daily the struggles first hand of poverty, homelessness in my Downtown Neighborhood.  I just don't want to be the Church Lady that sits in a cozy in a little box of piety, instead I want to get dirty, be real and evangelize Christ's love to all not just a select few. And The Catholic Feminist has given me permission to be/do just that and I finally feel not alone. Knowing that out there many other like minded Catholic Sisters exist learning to see and embrace our unique voices and worth... it's really a mind-blowing blessing and call. 

Blessed is She. Blessed is she community of Catholic Women has been a complete game changer for me this Lent as well. Travelling this Lent road with Women of all walks of Life has been amazing. Learning so much about Scripture via they're daily devotionals delivered to my inbox and the vibrant, authentic and aesthetically pleasing (hey I am design freak:) Instagram feed. "Meeting" many like minded women on their feeds and Ista-Stories. It's been empowering and beautiful to say the least. I look forward to hopefully bringing those on-line connections into my Daily life with their upcoming Blessed Brunch in my neck of the woods (Twin Cities) the end of the month and Wild//Blessed is She Regional Retreat in August. 

OK now it's your turn to share with me how this Lent has transformed you. And how you will be bringing it with you into this Awesome Easter Season and the Ordinary/Extraordinary times of your life? 

Love, C. 

Sunday Best//One.

Since over the last few weeks of really focusing on living my faith more boldly via Social Media. I have come across some pretty amazing inspiration and resources. I just want to share my personal favorites finds this week with you. I know many of you are already enjoying them😊 In that case join me in celebrating the Better part of Instagram:)

1// Pillow Talk. More a divine version😇  "Prophetic Dreams Happen Here" Pillow Case. Via @jenessawait. As many of us know by studying Sacred Scripture. God shows up through Night Dreams in pretty profound ways as warnings or heralding Good News usually through his Angels. I know in my own life I have had some pretty profound sleeping dreams as well as everyday dreams inspired by God. And this pillowcase is a sweet reminder of that. Available HERE and back in stock.

2// Mass Journal. Created to help celebrate the Mass in a beautiful new way. Via @everysacredsunday. I love how this began  between two friends and a Kickstarter program. Check out the Kickstarter HERE. 

3//How Dating should be inspiring instead of settling. Via @verilymag. I think we often get caught in the settling for what we think we deserve or someone that has potential. But, instead we should focus on finding and dating a Man that inspire us and likewise be that person for him:) 

4//How Lent can be a big Yes from us. Via Me @storyboardc

5//@beaheartdesign. This. Here. Now. Love her recent blog post on, “How to Love our bodies as they are and not compare and despair.” I myself work in the Beauty Industry and am constantly bombarded with not being Ideal. But, through my Faith... I have taken the not ideal to a place of Blessing. That our differences are truly not flaws. But, signs of True, Authentic Beauty. 

9// @theCatholicFeminist and originally posted via @beaheartdesign. Reminding us sometime in our faith we are not flowery and polished. Ha, me most of the time:)  We are called to be Real. Stopping the facade of fruitless focus on exterior things like what the scales says or that our hair isn’t perfectly coiffed- yes I said coiffed:) But, the Real S#*t.   Bringing our Authentic, sometimes messy part of our selves to Christ and in turn doing the work he has called us to do. 

6//A Spiritual Eye Opening Devotional on Vocation and Longing. A Must Read. Via @blessedisshe__  and written by @simply.sarahs

7//You might get sick of me posting about #shewhobelieves Lenten Devotion/Journal. But it is that Good! @blessedisshe__ Enjoy here my LINK for 20% off the Digital Download Version. 

8// The Sea of Galilee via @jamesmartinsj Love what Father James Martin Shares on his current pilgrimage to the Holy Land via Instagram and if you have never read his Book, Jesus: A Pilgrimage. Order it now:) It is one One of my all-time Spiritual favorites. 

9// @theCatholicFeminist and originally posted via @beaheartdesign. Reminding us sometime in our faith we are not flowery and polished. Ha, me most of the time:)  We are called to be Real. Stopping the facade of fruitless focus on exterior things like what the scales says or that our hair isn’t perfectly coiffed- yes I said coiffed:) But, the Real S#*t.  Bringing our Authentic, sometimes messy part of our selves to Christ and in turn doing the work he has called us to do.

I hope you enjoyed and please leave in the comments or email some of your current favorites on IG. And I hope your having a Blessed Second Sunday of Lent too. Love, C.

Faith Space.

I have decided to widen my Faith Space beyond the walls of my little studio. To encompass more of my everyday life including my online home of StoryboardC. and social media. After much prayer and promptings of my heart, I know this is the 'Better Part'. A calling to share what means the most to me- My Faith. It’s a big scary for me, but over the last year or so... I have so inspired by the #FaithMovement on-line. Especially on Instagram where everyday Women are sharing their Faith openly and honestly. I love seeing the community it is creating and I feel really called to be a part of that.  

As many of you have know, I have been blogging for 10+ years. At my old Blog home here, I saw some pretty awesome success at times in the Lifestyle Blog niche. Thanks to my initial hobby of scrapbooking and then sharing my childhood love of all things Mid-Century (Thanks Mad Men for making that possible). But, with the success came pressure to continually be on trend in content. I couldn't honestly keep up with it back in the day. And then something changed my focus... my Mother's illness and death. I still blogged sporadically, but lost that momentum and passion.  All the while my Faith became stronger, but on the blog it always took a quiet seat in the back. Fast forward to this last year with my own Open Heart Surgery (due to a childhood illness) at 42. I woke up to a whole new approach to faith and life. Knowing I needed to share without fear of being too Catholic-y on-line. God gave me these experiences and passions for creativity for a reason. And I needed to share it. 

And Now I am Here doing it:) It feels so right to share what awakens my heart each day. And I am ready to be more open with you as well and ask that you might share your faith with me too.

Maybe together we can choose 'The Better Part',

As they continued their journey he entered a village where a woman whose name was Martha welcomed him.
She had a sister named Mary [who] sat beside the Lord at his feet listening to him speak.
Martha, burdened with much serving, came to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me by myself to do the serving? Tell her to help me."
The Lord said to her in reply, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and worried about many things.
There is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part and it will not be taken from her.”

(Luke 10:41-42)

I don’t know if you have ever read that Bible passage. But, it has become a sort of spiritual guide each day for me. To stop busying myself with the everyday and be more like Mary... being bold and Bring Faith to all parts of my life. Taking the time to sit at Jesus's feet in Prayer and listen. Then go forth to share his Love. Even on the Internet. I know it is not a comfortable place and I might even lose long time readers because of it. But, many of you are doing it already and have opened me up to that possibility. Thank you!  Especially now when Faith today is looked upon by so many as a Weakness or even a Deterrent from Fun.  But, I know from my own experience. It is my greatest strength and a priceless gift. And I do still have fun loving and serving God:) Its a far from being a boring existence. I am sure you will agree. Actually, it’s a big, beautiful daily challenge to be the Women Christ calls us to be. We might make mistakes, say the wrong things, find ourselves impatient and judgmental. But, also we see the never ending hope God gives us while we live out our Faith authentically.  

Truly I am so glad you are here with me as I begin. Thank you for coming by, supporting and joining me. I am so excited to share our Faith Stories together:) And Please Pray for Me as I will Pray for our #FaithMovement and #ChoosingTheBetterPart. 

Love, C. 

StoryboardC. Notes:

If you are interested in Knowing more about The Better Part. Below is a talk given by Fr. John Bartunek. Father Bartunek is well-known for being one of the consulting Priests for Mel Gibson's Passion movie and the Author of my favorite Devotional aptly called, 'The Better Part' available at your local Catholic Bookstore or Amazon.  It is 48 minutes. But, once you begin watching and after the introduction.  You will love his message. P.S. Grab Tissues too or a spare Toilet Roll like I did:) It is tear inducing.

Shake It Up.

I have been drinking my Breakfast for years:) It all began with my Mom back in the late 80's when she jumped on the Tofu trend train😂.  She would throw it in the blender with ice, fat-free milk and some kind of fruit. It was actually filling, fast and easy on the stomach in the morning vs. eating a typical breakfast. Fast Forward to now, I am still doing the Shake thing minus the tofu:) So, my most recent Nutrition Shake Powder find is pretty yum-tastic and full of all the Healthy goodies I have been looking for... I have tried so many in the past some awesome (Arbonne is pretty fantastic, but pricey ($76) and that dreaded having to wait to buy it from a direct sales site) or the icky ones that taste like you grabbed a bunch of twigs and dried leaves from the yard😂. So, without further ado I would like you to meet: 

Amazing Grass Protein Superfood Nutrition Shake:) I am really digging the New Pure Vanilla version, but they also have other flavors (Chocolate, Chocolate Peanut Butter and the Original). 

This Shake you guys is seriously a powerhouse. When I first picked it up at Target. I was so impressed with how easy the back ingredient label read. No weird scientific sounding words. Very Straight forward and each Packet includes: 2 Servings of Fruits and Veggies. 7 Alkalizing Greens (If your curious as I was to know what that means. I will have a link below:) and 20 Grams of Plant Based Protein. 

When I picked up my first few packets, I was a little worried about the taste. But, when I made my first shake...I was pleasantly relieved. It tasted so darn good. It really mixed well with my usual ingredients of Vanilla Almond Milk and Frozen Organic Peaches. The Texture was smooth as well. 

It's definitely a Shake win for me and I hope you will give it a try if you're the liquid breakfast kind of person🙂. *And no I am not getting paid for this review:) **And also. for my Gluten Free or Vegan Friends is good for you too. Plus it's USDA Organic. Win. Win. 

Seriously Let me Know if you try it:) and Happy Healthy Day to YOU.

Love, C.

StoryboardC. Note:

10 Alkalizing Foods to Help Heal/Amazing Grass

FYI: The shake packets are less expensive than purchasing the 11 servings container. And it is a great way to try them. 

This is Why I Blog.

It’s magical for me.

It's quite honestly what gets me up most Mornings.

It's my little corner of Passion in a sometimes mundane life.

It's my Creativity at work.

It's taking Photographs, Writing words and exercising my need to Learn.

It's where I Document this little life of mine. 

It's about sharing my Heart with others. 

It's where I tell Small and big stories. 

It's where I feel Confident.  

It's where I practice Mindfulness. 

It's where I find the beauty in Now.

It's where I dare to Dream. 

It's how I digest my Past and let it go. 

It's Fun. 

It's my little Legacy in the making. 

It's my Hobby. 

This is why I blog.

Thank you for being a part of this creative endeavor for over 10 years♥️. 

Love, C. 

Better Than Before.

I am Better than Before. Definitely not Perfect. But, yep Better than Before. Here is a little update where I am at on the Healthy train, certain actions I beginning to take and goals for the next three months. 

Pump on Girl. 

So, the other day on my commute to work, I listened to a Podcast that made my heart pump with Gratitude.  Oprah's SuperSoul Conversation with Geneen Roth- Conscious Eating. They hit on so many inspiring topics. But, One Statement Oprah made, "Pump on Girl" resonated with me on a level I had been looking for. She spoke about how our Hearts Serve us throughout our lives and make it possible to be HERE. I know this to be true, literally:) Since the Nine Months after having my Open-Heart Surgery (to replace my Mitral Valve from a childhood bout with rheumatic fever, if you didn't know:). Now with my Heart working so beautifully, I am gifted with a healthy life I had thought was not possible.  

I can physically do the things, I used to love so much again. Like going for walks and busting up hills with ease or Climbing up stairs like I own those bitches:) Even Running to not miss the bus. All because I can breathe! It's amazing thing, I cherish every moment. And I hope by reading this you do too:) 

Spring Forward Action. 

Barre 3. In the past week I started back up with Barre 3 Online. Exercise Motivation, even with my past heart issues was not a problem for me except in the last few years. I was limited on what I Could do. Now, I can plank without reserve:) When I was in recovery mode last summer. I had to limit certain movements with my open-heart incision. Now that it’s beyond healed, if you are wondering... the only time it still might be uncomfortable. Is if I cough, sneeze or if I am too cold. But, now I am back to fully enjoying Barre 3. It’s a great bonus to my daily walks.

Overall,  the Barre3 online program is so wonderfully designed and works magically during the winter months. I am already seeing results with my stamina and mood. I Look forward to the other benefits:) 

Well-Balanced Baby. No Whole30 or Keto for me. I am sticking to what works. Balance, Average Portions and Limiting my Carb-Sugar intake. I have spent too many years on those crazy fad diets. Before you jump on me with Stats and Articles. I know what I am doing:) I might even go back to this program. It really works (I lost 100 pounds working this program), while teaching you how to eat for Life not for a Diet. 

Nice Little Goals. Recently Listening to this Podcast, I was reminded of the power of little Goals and Keeping it Quarterly. So, for the next 3 months I am working on the above and Making my Bed daily too:) So, Far so good:) on all fronts. 

Thank you for stopping by my little corner of the Internet and reading my health updates and goals:) Keep me posted if you have any:) Love you Guys. 

Love, C. 

Brave/One Little Word.

I am just keeping with the New Years Theme this whole week:) Literally Chilling (it have been brutally cold up in these parts) with my One Little Word for 2018. It wasn't hard choosing it after last year, It kind feels like it "chose" me. Maybe a second act of some sorts. Whatever it is... I am ready for more Brave in my life. It kind of freaks me out even saying that:) But, Bring it:)  Remember, "If it ain't uncomfortable, it's not Brave." 

My Brave. 

I will take more risks. I will tell Fear to suck it. I will be Confident in my Inner Compass. I will take more unknown Roads. I will take Action, even if there is Resistance. I will Embrace the Unwanted. I will fail. I will get up again and again.  I will Say what is not Expected. I will Open my Heart. I will live my Creativity. .I will be BRAVE. 

Now for your word. Let me know below and why you chose it. And if you haven't yet check out One Little Word® Guru Ali Edwards and her 2018 WORD. 

Love, C.